One more Judgement Day down..(phew)

well the result's finally out..and yesss 75% of engg is over..one more year of this and i'll b a graduate!!!an Engineer....by god's gracious gift (by god i also mean the university and others of course) this time i managed to become a UT yuppee ....congrats to ME!! ..seeing as this result hardly counts now that placments r over and barely 50% of the students actually turned up to collect the result at the prescribed hour...congratulating myself seemed a fair thing to do..neway im not one of those types who change their orkut names to "Topper" or something(no
offence meant here .. :P) i understood one thing yesterday its always a great deal of help to step back and look at yourself from your own point of view....

i dont mean the big introspection stuff here...come on, i dont think i can ever b completely unbiased when it comes to judging myself seeing as i can't even manage 2 b one about appraising the football club i support ... no i just meant LOOKING at yourself..to view where I stand...i mean come on two decades of life is over...and the ideas or the dreams i had are still hardly anything more than ideas and dreams only....

as it turns out there are many things to blame this on(excluding me of course.. :P)...i choose emmm...dunno all the things are so interconnected and follow one after the other that you'll just end up blaming everything on everything :P ...and the problem is for those hypocrites like me (:P) who are just gifted to find faults ....never seem to come up with a solution...while some say there is none..others claim that realising the problem itself is a step towards solution
(savvy eh?)

i feel the hitch is with the fact that 'the compulsive nature of our lives to continuing to
prove ourselves..constantly, relentlessly' it starts what like when u r 5 yrs of age i guess.the parents will have to give the interview first..this is complete bullshit at least in my opinion(screw the child psychologists)..then the 1st standard exam suddenly starts appearing like a great threat to our identity and worthy of giving up the playtime also..man its nobody's fault actually ...the peer pressure just climbs up recursively with infinite system stack space(well i gotta show i study somewhere right..:P)and this is with the external factors excluding

why is it that every exam and result day feels like friday the 13th and we no longer fear the actual one(:P come on wht could b worse than this huh?)i guess its wont change now...will go on becoming worse more likely...and no matter how much i brag about the evil nature of exams and stuff i must admit i am a firm follower of those...i do fear a little every exam,every prac an every oral an every class test(although these are bygones since engg stated)

so here's the crux of the post - whether the result's good or bad just look at the big picture...bcuz at least for me this is the only time when i do .. :P

and just like everything else regarding THIS matter ,even the post is turned out to be messy!! (exactly my point ,see...<:-) )